Is it the Season

Is it the season, or is it simply me? I feel in a slow motion mode. I sometimes feel like I am banging my head against the wall. This is more about me than anything else. In our Acts study this morning I was struck by a passage of scripture that warns people against certain activity. The last line says, " You would do well to avoid these things" I have to kinda giggle at that one. As a parent I can tell my son to rethink something, but that in no way means he is going to do so. I know eventually he will act on his own accord and vault himself from the top of the couch. There is nothing I can do to stop him...I can tell him a million times to not do something, alas, the minute I tell him no, he is bound to do that very thing anyway. Kids, gotta love 'em.
I am like that. God can warn me all He wants, and yet I seem reluctant to do what I know I should. I know I should do more for the Gospel, I should reach out more, I should give more, the list is endless. I should also be more content with my current station. I find myself wanting more. Bigger ideas, more people to reach, more of an impact to make, this list also seems endless. The more I want to do and accomplish, the more I question my motivation and then I feel all confused again. I guess if it were easy, it would not be worth as much as it is in the long run. Sometimes, though, I just feel like banging my head against the wall and yelling out, " What does all this mean?"