So which one am I supposed do first?

Ahhh the list of priorities continues to mount. Mom, wife, ministry worker, disciple, student....the list grows. I am overjoyed to be at this juncture of my life, but let me tell you, this is hard work. Someone told me not so long ago that the stage of pruning and perfecting oneself in the image of God is hard work. How true that is. I feel overwhelmed at some of the prospects out ahead of me, yet oddly energized at the process of it all. I am not sure that i am making a ton of sense, just know that I am in a transitional stage right now, and I hope you'll bear with me on the ride.

QUACK

Ok, the title for this blog came from an impromtu staff meeting where I asked to change a meeting time for all of us. You cannot imagine the guilt and guts it took for me to ask for the meeting time change. My fellow colleagues laughed a bit and told me that I would have to develop a thicker skin if I was to succeed and stay in ministry. One nice lady ;-) told me to think of it as oil on feathers, comments and issues would slide right off. I giggled, and then as I walked back to my office I realized how true that is. I also realized how much wisdom is entailed in that phrase.
As I think about ministry and loving people as Jesus would, I know in my head that there will be times that I will say and do the unpopular. I will anger people, I already have in my short tenure here. I will receive and grant grace and forgiveness, and that is ok. I have/will learn.
Jesus was not popular. Jesus did not worry about his feelings being hurt, nor did he worry about offending. Because he acted in Love and understood the grace of God, and the people with whom he was working, he could be honest and open.
I am often frustrated with myself for being the emotive indivdual that I am. If someone is hurting, I tend to hurt right along with them. Sometimes this serves me well, other times it can be a hindrance. As I begin this new chapter in seminary life I am awarded the opportunity to assess who I think I am versus who God has created me to be. I look forward with anxious joy to the trip and the final product.
I would covet your prayers as I continue my mission of pruning. ~cal~